I'm sorry in advance if this turns out to be more of a rambling blog than one with any actual purpose/meaning. Today was a very tragic day in our small town. A really good friend of mine and my family's was killed in a tragic car accident. Because not all information has been released, I'll spare the details. He was only a sophomore in college, 19 years old. The two of us grew up together, our families were good friends, we always did stuff together growing up. I've got the picture to prove it :) I was awoken at 2:30 this morning by a friend and haven't slept since. My family spent all day over with their family at the home and it's just been a really long day.
I've promised myself to try very hard not to question God during this loss as well as to not ask the purpose of such a tragedy. I don't think I will ever truly know the reasons behind God's choices, but if it's one thing I know from experience, there's always a reason. What really tore me up is seeing an old family friend today while visiting with people in their home. I haven't seen this person in a very long time and miss her dearly. I immediately ran to hug her & she took my hands in hers and told me she wanted to tell me how special I was to her and that God had some big plans for my life because she could just see his presence with me. She said I just always held this calm presence about myself that could only come from God's peace.
This means more to me than she'll ever know, especially because it came from her. I definitely do not always have everything together all the time, but who does? I felt special that someone had seen that in me since I've always strived to have that. One things for sure, although I hold such a heavy heart for everyone who is just as torn up as I am, especially his immediate family, I've never felt so blessed. I have a loving family and a terrific brother without whom I really don't want to know where I'd be. I don't think I've ever hugged him so many times in a day before. I couldn't take my eyes off of him today, as if with my glance I could keep him safe forever. My prayers go out to the family of my dear old friend and for all others touched by his life. I pray that God gives us all a peace that passes all understanding