Friday, April 20, 2012


I can't believe it's been almost 4 weeks since my last post - my apologies.  What's worse is that 2 weeks from tomorrow, I'll offcially be a college graduate.  Wow, that's scary.  It feels like only yesterday my parents were dropping me off at my dorm room, waving goodbye, tears in my mom's eyes. 

I'm not at all ready for graduation, although if I knew where my future was headed I think I might be a little more excited.  I can't lie to myself and say that I haven't been excited at some points recently.  I mean, it is exciting to know that all your hard work - the late nights, the stressful papers, and assignments, that it's all been worthwhile.  I just know that no amount of excitement can compare to the emptiness I already feel in my heart from leaving this place.  I've made some incredible friends, whom without, this journey would not have been near this exciting.  I have also had some wonderful experiences in my field of study. 

As I look around my dorm room, things slowly disappearing off the walls as my roommate and I prepare to go home for the summer, I can't help but get teary-eyed that I can never have this again.  I try not to get into the mode that no one understands how I feel, but a lot of times I really don't think they do.  I pray that God will soon show me His plans for me so that I can start to focus on my future so that my past doesn't become a painful memory of something I can't return to.  I 'd much rather look back on these days with fondness and smiles.

Sorry for the rambling..I'm sure I'll have more to say in 2 weeks, and I'll try to make it more organized :)

Saturday, March 17, 2012

The Sands of Time

So, today I was told I don't use this blog very much anymore.  I apologize because that's not my intention at all.  I write constantly, but somtimes don't know the right moment to share things with "the world." But, this is for you. Hope you enjoy.  I wrote it a while back. 

The Sands of Time

Cross-legged on the floor,
Covered in mommy’s make-up;
“Do I look pretty mom?”
When will I grow up?

All dolled up with ribbons and curls,
Heading out on stage;
Lipstick on, tap shoes laced tightly,
The confidence of a young woman in a child’s body.

Ten and two – hands on the wheel,
Finally, a driver’s license.
Seeing freedom through a rear-view mirror;
A time all my own.

“As I call your name,
You may be presented with your diploma.”
The world ahead of me was calling,
College, just around the corner.

Leaving family life behind,
The comfortable life I’d always known.
New life and new friends,
A chance to find myself.

 Like sand, slipping through an hour glass-
My four years have come and gone,
Teaching me about life,
But as well as about myself.

As the open road of life
Lays in front of my eyes,
Memories of love, laughter, and friendships
Will forever be engrained on my heart.