Monday, November 21, 2011

Love, Me.

My dear friend,

This might be one of the most difficult things I've ever had to write.  As we approach thanksgiving, as well as the upcoming December month, I know a lot of hearts are continuing to break as we miss you from our lives; However, although brief, I'm thankful for the time that I did get to spend with you.  You were one of my first crushes...the "bad boy" if you will..we were nothing alike, yet I "worshiped" you from afar.  I'm not sure how many people I've ever admitted that to.  Although we were very different, you were someone I could talk to, could share experiences with, laugh with.  We grew apart some as we grew older, our families did as well; I always regretted that.  We were just different, but somehow the two of us managed to keep in touch.  Two summers ago, the last time I saw you, I can still remember the conversations we had together and I probably always will.  I'm thankful that although our families all miss your presence sometimes too much to bear, that we have all reconnected and are able to strengthen our "family bond" once again.  Your presence is always there, I can always feel you near.  I can't tell you how much I appreciate every sign and blessing you have sent my way.  I pray to you that you still continue to send them to myself and as well as those who truly need them.  I ask you to keep an eye on all of us here and to keep us sane until we can finally see you again.  I love you so much.. <3

Love always,

Wednesday, November 16, 2011


I'm not big on change, never have been.  My mother will back me up on this.  I don't like any type of change really, it's just not something I handle well at all.  That's probably why this year, my senior year of college, has been so terribly difficult for me.  When I can't really handle the seasons changing, the time changing (because I'm blind), and small issues like that, how can I be expected to handle a huge change in my life such as graduating from college, in say, oh, 6 months? 

Lately we've had even bigger changes in our small college community.  Our president, that we haven't even had more than a year and a half has resigned.  He shook my hand and hugged me at our awards service, then I find out the very same afternoon that he's resigned?  Somethings not right.  Some say they're happy with his absence, but I can't say I agree.  He always spoke to students on campus, asked us our opinions, and genuinely seemed to care about what we wanted to see happen within our small community of students and faculty.  I've also been told it's not important per say for me to personally know the person handing me my college diploma, but I disagree.  In a small community such as this, I find it's very important to have a personal relationship with the "higher-ups," so in an effort to try to be positive about the situation, I plan on getting to know our "acting" president, because it's highly doubtful our college will see a new president within the next 6 months.  Today I was finally given closure on the issue when someone finally decided to tell me a little more of the truth when it came to everything that happened.  I respect that, because all of us here are adults and should be treated as such when it comes to the place we spend the majority of our time. 

Walking back from class today, as I'm headed to my room, I hear the usual chimes in the distance that play on the hour for our campus.  Whether we have a president now or not, whether or not I'm here in 6 months, none of those things will effect the bells significance to our community.  The chimes will play on, as should I.